I am doing a discipleship series through our church called ROOTED. This is my second time through the series…the first time was AMAZING…honestly a part of me wondered if I would get as much out of it the second time around (this is week 1)….
But God…God always does immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine.
In reading through Day 1 alone… a statement stood out to me and took me on a journey. The statement was: “our limited minds and finite lives simply cannot fathom the depth and breadth of God. It is only as God reveals Himself to us that we begin to get an accurate picture of who He really is.”
I have to say that the more God reveals Himself to me…the more in AWE I am of Him and I realize there is so much more for me to understand, learn and experience about the depth and breadth of God…and I was reminded that since my son, Kamran passed away…God has revealed Himself to me in so many miraculous and supernatural ways… ways that leave me reveling in not only the depth and breadth of who God is…but also the depth and breadth of His love and care for me!
I want to share with you, one way that God revealed Himself to me this past week. I consider this a special gift from Him, at the very time I needed it.
Below is a picture of it. I had just finished writing in the journal that you see in the picture. It is a journal I began keeping after Kamran died. It mostly has letters in it that I write to Kamran. A little back history…since Kamran died…butterflies seem to show up in the most unusual places…as if they are a “gift” from God…because when I see them, I experience an overwhelming peace and joy…a peace and joy that usually makes no sense…based on where I am emotionally at the time they show up….and immediately after this immense feeling of peace and joy immerse my being…my son is brought to my mind, and a smile…. a real smile…forms on my face…. those real smiles are often times few and far between most days…. If you look at the picture closely you will see the tiny butterfly sitting at the end of the journal. He landed on my leg and literally stayed there for over 8 minutes (I videoed 8 minutes and 13 seconds of it)…I FaceTimed my daughter to show her…then he flew away. As I finished my call with her, I began to whisper a thank you to God for loving me so perfectly… I looked down and there he was again just sitting on my journal… I whispered another thank you to God and continued to be in awe of who He is and how he loves and cares for me.
Now, some may say that was coincidence, it wasn’t God…but I don’t believe that…I believe God knew how my heart was hurting, he knew the hollowness in my innermost being from having a part of me gone for the rest of this lifetime, and he knew with Kamran’s birthday upon us that I needed something….and it was no coincidence that God gave me exactly what I needed in that moment….He is good, He is faithful and His love for us is so immense, so personal….so much so that as the book says….”Our limited minds and finite lives simply cannot fathom the depth and breadth of God. It is only as God reveals Himself to us that we begin to get an accurate picture of who He really is.”
I have come to know that it is in our darkest moments that we learn so much about our RELATIONSHIPS…especially our relationship with God… That relationship is truly the epitome of a REALationship!
I pray that as God reveals himself to each of you that you will feel how deeply He loves you, and cares for you and that on this journey together called “life,”… we will begin to see more and more of WHO HE REALLY IS!