My precious embraceREALationships.com friends; I know it has been some time since you have heard from me. I am feeling God urge me to share what has been going on in my life.
For most parents, the death of their child is “the worst possible thing “ we could fathom happening in our lives. That “worst possible thing” became a reality for my husband and I eight weeks ago. In an instant our lives changed and they will never be the same again. Our 22 year old son, Kamran, died in a motorcycle accident. The world, here on Earth is duller because Kamran was such a bright light in our lives. I can’t imagine my life without him, because he was such a huge part of it.
As we struggle to make sense of this tragedy, and wonder how we will survive the pain and huge void that we feel, we are left with many questions, but at the same time I am convicted of several things that I THOUGHT I KNEW… NOW…I KNOW THAT I KNOW, THAT I KNOW.
I KNOW that God is faithful to His promises.
He promises He will never leave us nor forsake us and He hasn’t left me for one second of this nightmare. He is real, His promises are true. He is sustaining me.
I have felt the power, presence and strength of God before, but never like this. God is physically holding me up…over and over and over again, to the point of not even making sense to our human minds. And when this pain sweeps over me and takes me to my knees; He is holding me there as well!
I KNOW that without God I could not survive this, I would be consumed!
I stand on God’s promise in Romans 8:28; “And we know that in ALL things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose.”
I KNOW that God will work “good” from this; good will come out of this tragedy….otherwise none of it makes sense. I have already seen some of the good. People have shared with me through texts, calls, and social media some of the things that Kamran’s life and death have impressed on them and their lives for the future. Kamran’s life impacted many people and it meant something. I believe his death here on earth and his eternal life in heaven will continue to impact people as well.
Kamran was confident in his relationship with God the Father and Jesus. I have seen him lean into God, especially in this past year. I KNOW that he is in heaven…living in eternity “out loud” and loving “fiercely” just as he did on earth.
And I KNOW that I know, that I know I will see him again; and I thank God for that every day!
God is also revealing to me; that my 22 year old son, knew so much more about REALationships than I do. God blessed him with the gift of embracing REAL relationships in a way that has all of us who knew him in awe. I hope to share more about this in detail with you, in the future.
I pray God will make himself known to each and every one of you and that His mercy, grace, and love will sustain and HOLD each and every one of you through whatever pain, brokenness, and/or tragedy that you may be going through.
If Kamran were here he would want everyone to know that “God’s Got This”.