My precious embraceREALationships.com friends; I know it has been some time since you have heard from me. I am feeling God urge me to share what has been going on in my life.
For most parents, the death of their child is “the worst possible thing “ we could fathom happening in our lives. That “worst possible thing” became a reality for my husband and I eight weeks ago. In an instant our lives changed and they will never be the same again. Our 22 year old son, Kamran, died in a motorcycle accident. The world, here on Earth is duller because Kamran was such a bright light in our lives. I can’t imagine my life without him, because he was such a huge part of it.
As we struggle to make sense of this tragedy, and wonder how we will survive the pain and huge void that we feel, we are left with many questions, but at the same time I am convicted of several things that I THOUGHT I KNEW… NOW…I KNOW THAT I KNOW, THAT I KNOW.
I KNOW that God is faithful to His promises.
He promises He will never leave us nor forsake us and He hasn’t left me for one second of this nightmare. He is real, His promises are true. He is sustaining me.
I have felt the power, presence and strength of God before, but never like this. God is physically holding me up…over and over and over again, to the point of not even making sense to our human minds. And when this pain sweeps over me and takes me to my knees; He is holding me there as well!
I KNOW that without God I could not survive this, I would be consumed!
I stand on God’s promise in Romans 8:28; “And we know that in ALL things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose.”
I KNOW that God will work “good” from this; good will come out of this tragedy….otherwise none of it makes sense. I have already seen some of the good. People have shared with me through texts, calls, and social media some of the things that Kamran’s life and death have impressed on them and their lives for the future. Kamran’s life impacted many people and it meant something. I believe his death here on earth and his eternal life in heaven will continue to impact people as well.
Kamran was confident in his relationship with God the Father and Jesus. I have seen him lean into God, especially in this past year. I KNOW that he is in heaven…living in eternity “out loud” and loving “fiercely” just as he did on earth.
And I KNOW that I know, that I know I will see him again; and I thank God for that every day!
God is also revealing to me; that my 22 year old son, knew so much more about REALationships than I do. God blessed him with the gift of embracing REAL relationships in a way that has all of us who knew him in awe. I hope to share more about this in detail with you, in the future.
I pray God will make himself known to each and every one of you and that His mercy, grace, and love will sustain and HOLD each and every one of you through whatever pain, brokenness, and/or tragedy that you may be going through.
If Kamran were here he would want everyone to know that “God’s Got This”.
Kamran’s favorite verse: Philippians 4:13 “I can do all this through him who gives me strength.”
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Debbie, your words are so lovely and inspiring, . I think of you every day since Kamran’s death. Hugs to you, my friend,
Love, Cat
Thank you Cat, I appreciate you so much!
Debbie this was such sad news for us and hits close to home with our kids being the same age and friends in soccer! I can’t express the sympathy and the prayers we say for you and your family! May your faith, family and friends carry you thro these hard times and continue you thru until you all meet again! We know he is watching down on all and will take care of you!
Thank you so much for your prayers. They are truly holding us up.
I understand your pain. We lost our 38 year old daughter from cancer nearly 6 years ago. It’s still painful and she will forever be in our thoughts. We are now raising her daughter who is 16. God is standing beside at all times and is blessing us in ways we never thought possible. So sorry to read about the son you lost.
I am so sorry for the loss of your precious daughter. As you know, the pain is almost unbearable at times; I can’t even imagine trying to walk through that pain without God. I am thankful He is beside you at all times. Thank you for reaching out.
God bless you and your family! You have experienced the unthinkable but your faith in God’s promise is inspiring.. I’ll be praying for you and your family.
Thank you so much Pamela for your prayers. There are days when I can’t even find the words to pray but I know that lovely people like you are praying for us and we feel the power of those prayers. I appreciate YOU.
Debbie – Not a day goes by that Kam is not in my thoughts. He has inspired me to live a life where “People Matter.” all of the time. Both you and he have a knack for making others feel loved, cared for, and important. He will live on in our hearts.
You wrote a beautiful post from your heart. Thank you for your vulnerability. My prayers are with all of you always.
Love you,
Maree
Thank you, I love you and appreciate you so much!
I lost my 2 and a half year old on June 26th. I used Romans 8:28 in her Celebration of Life, and I’ve held onto exactly what you explained. God is good– even in the darkest times. Someone sent this to me right after the accident, but I just read it today as God allowed me to connect to this in a different way than I would have two weeks ago. I’ll be praying for your family and that you continue to feel God’s peace and comfort throughout this journey. Prayers, my friend.
Lindsay,
I am so very sorry for the loss of your child. I will be praying for you and your family as well. I am so sorry that you have to travel this journey. I will pray specifically for your “momma’s” heart and in those deep dark anguish filled moments, I pray you feel God right beside you. If you ever want to talk please let me know. Love to you and your family.
Beautiful Debbie. Thank you for sharing your faith the way you do. Love you
Thank you Erin. Love you so much.
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Much love to you, Debbie, from a fellow mama warrior. I’m close to entering year 3 without my Caroline who died at age 21. Life as we knew it imploded and the pieces are still falling…grief, indeed, is not predictable in any way. New frontiers are constantly being discovered by my other three daughters and me.
Blessings and strength as you wander this new road <3
Hi Stephanie, I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Caroline. I appreciate you, your love, and your
bidding for blessings and strength. Prayers for you and your 3 daughters.
Debbie